lysara
Be kind to yourself. Stop telling yourself that whatever you are struggling with “should” be easy. If something is hard for you, it is hard for you. There are probably Reasons, though those may just be how you are wired. Acknowledge these things. When you finish something hard, be proud! Celebrate a little.

And really, just stop saying “should” to yourself about your thoughts and feelings in any context. You feel how you feel. The things in your head are the things in your head. You can’t change either directly through sheer force of will. You can only change what you do. Stop beating yourself up for who and what you are right now–it isn’t productive. Focus on moving forward.

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sixpenceee:

Responses have been collected from various threads on reddit
Material you are about to read contains a range of things including violence, sexual violence, gore and other disturbing content.
READ AND CLICK ON LINKS AT YOUR OWN RISK
DAVID PARKER RAY
reddit user youcancallmeAl__
"Reading about David Parker Ray truly scarred me for life. I didn’t believe anyone when they said they couldn’t make it through his tape transcripts, I realized it isn’t because of the length of them."
David Parker Ray is an American serial killer and torturer. Before he began to torture his victims he made them listen to a tape
Here is a transcript of the tape (WARNING: VERY TRIGGERING NSFW)
JONESTOWN SUICIDE TAPE
reddit user deleted
The recording of the mass suicide at Jonestown. You could hear a kid screaming “I don’t want it!!”
Here is the recording
HIDDEN WEBCAMS
reddit user disastermarch35
I was on Reddit sometime last fall/winter and I stumbled upon a link to a website that was a map of the world with click-able areas. When cities were clicked on, it opened up a window displaying somebody’s webcam…only it didn’t appear they were aware of it. I clicked on a few to see what it was all about and there were just people watching tv with their webcam broadcasting their living room activities over the internet. One was a baby sleeping in a crib. Most were empty rooms. It was super creepy. I tried looking for the post to link it, but I didn’t find it immediately and I don’t really feel like searching for it.
THE DISTURBING BLOGGER
reddit user Miir
A girl that keeps a blog about putting maggots in her vagina. even though she almost died from it, she kept doing it, and she describes the experiences very detailed. it made me literally feel sick.
This is her blog
TOO MUCH FOR A KID
reddit user SFritsche
There was a cave in Neopets in the prehistoric area that you could send your pet into. As you move deeper into the cave you start being told of a low breathing noise, your neopet gets very scared but you force it to keep moving deeper into the cave. Then BAM your screen blows up with a terrifying, drooling, screaming monster. There’s no exit button, your pet has been eaten and you are 110% to blame. (Until you load back to a previous page on your browser). More guilt and nightmares than a 6 year old should ever have to deal with.
VIDEO I WISH I NEVER WATCHED
reddit user Khalifeh19
Me and my friend were just talking about this the other day. He told me he once saw this video of this naked Japanese girl in a room. She gets on the bed, and then starts to get inside a giant plastic bag. Minutes later some guy walks in and just sucks all the air out of it, she struggles for minutes that seem like hours and then dies. Willingly. what.the.fuck.
reddit user Pancakemuncher
Well, when I was a wee lad at the young age of twelve, I was using a site called meebo to talk to all my rich friends with AIM. Now, one day, a friend and I were going to chat, but he was late. So I got on a random chat room to pass the time. When I clicked on it, however, a video opened. This was no “Chocolate Rain” or even “Two Girls, One Cup”, this was something far worse. This was something called “Genitals VS Hatchet”. In this video, there was an epic battle between two men’s genitals and a hatchet. The Genitals valiantly tried to remain attached to the men, but were…cut down.
I got the following from these threads: (x) (x) (x) 
What’s the creepiest/horrifying thing you’ve ever found on the internet? It could be a game, a video, a gif, a website or an audio file. 
Make a post and tag “sixpenceee”
If you liked this perhaps you’ll be interested in the GLITCH IN THE MATRIX POST

OK. After reading the transcript of David Parker Ray, definitely lost something. So these are definitely readings of your own risks. I probably won’t be able to read anything else on this post after reading that.
Anyway, here’s a wikipedia article about the guy. Even on the transcript when he was making it sound like there was no hope of escaping, someone did because of a mistake that his accomplice did.
This is a terrible case. As much as I tend to give the world a chance and look for the light in the world, we have to remember to keep watching out for the dark in the world as well.

sixpenceee:

Responses have been collected from various threads on reddit

Material you are about to read contains a range of things including violence, sexual violence, gore and other disturbing content.

READ AND CLICK ON LINKS AT YOUR OWN RISK

DAVID PARKER RAY

reddit user youcancallmeAl__

  • "Reading about David Parker Ray truly scarred me for life. I didn’t believe anyone when they said they couldn’t make it through his tape transcripts, I realized it isn’t because of the length of them."
  • David Parker Ray is an American serial killer and torturer. Before he began to torture his victims he made them listen to a tape
  • Here is a transcript of the tape (WARNING: VERY TRIGGERING NSFW)

JONESTOWN SUICIDE TAPE

reddit user deleted

  • The recording of the mass suicide at Jonestown. You could hear a kid screaming “I don’t want it!!”
  • Here is the recording

HIDDEN WEBCAMS

reddit user disastermarch35

  • I was on Reddit sometime last fall/winter and I stumbled upon a link to a website that was a map of the world with click-able areas. When cities were clicked on, it opened up a window displaying somebody’s webcam…only it didn’t appear they were aware of it. I clicked on a few to see what it was all about and there were just people watching tv with their webcam broadcasting their living room activities over the internet. One was a baby sleeping in a crib. Most were empty rooms. It was super creepy. I tried looking for the post to link it, but I didn’t find it immediately and I don’t really feel like searching for it.

THE DISTURBING BLOGGER

reddit user Miir

  • A girl that keeps a blog about putting maggots in her vagina. even though she almost died from it, she kept doing it, and she describes the experiences very detailed. it made me literally feel sick.
  • This is her blog

TOO MUCH FOR A KID

reddit user SFritsche

  • There was a cave in Neopets in the prehistoric area that you could send your pet into. As you move deeper into the cave you start being told of a low breathing noise, your neopet gets very scared but you force it to keep moving deeper into the cave. Then BAM your screen blows up with a terrifying, drooling, screaming monster. There’s no exit button, your pet has been eaten and you are 110% to blame. (Until you load back to a previous page on your browser). More guilt and nightmares than a 6 year old should ever have to deal with.

VIDEO I WISH I NEVER WATCHED

reddit useKhalifeh19

  • Me and my friend were just talking about this the other day. He told me he once saw this video of this naked Japanese girl in a room. She gets on the bed, and then starts to get inside a giant plastic bag. Minutes later some guy walks in and just sucks all the air out of it, she struggles for minutes that seem like hours and then dies. Willingly. what.the.fuck.

reddit user Pancakemuncher

  • Well, when I was a wee lad at the young age of twelve, I was using a site called meebo to talk to all my rich friends with AIM. Now, one day, a friend and I were going to chat, but he was late. So I got on a random chat room to pass the time. When I clicked on it, however, a video opened. This was no “Chocolate Rain” or even “Two Girls, One Cup”, this was something far worse. This was something called “Genitals VS Hatchet”. In this video, there was an epic battle between two men’s genitals and a hatchet. The Genitals valiantly tried to remain attached to the men, but were…cut down.

I got the following from these threads: (x) (x) (x) 

What’s the creepiest/horrifying thing you’ve ever found on the internet? It could be a game, a video, a gif, a website or an audio file. 

Make a post and tag “sixpenceee”

If you liked this perhaps you’ll be interested in the GLITCH IN THE MATRIX POST

OK. After reading the transcript of David Parker Ray, definitely lost something. So these are definitely readings of your own risks. I probably won’t be able to read anything else on this post after reading that.

Anyway, here’s a wikipedia article about the guy. Even on the transcript when he was making it sound like there was no hope of escaping, someone did because of a mistake that his accomplice did.

This is a terrible case. As much as I tend to give the world a chance and look for the light in the world, we have to remember to keep watching out for the dark in the world as well.

storyofeden
I don’t have a fear of commitment. I have a fear of abandonment. We all screw things up. I screw things up, especially with people I love. I get needy, I get moody, I get distant, I want to be close, I get confused. I don’t understand all of it, but I keep pushing because I hope this thing, this universe, there’s no way that I’m the only person out there who wants something this bad, if I want it, someone else out there must too.
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